What a weekend. We have so much on at the moment and the past weekend was Christmas at the Zoo, the Pukekohe Christmas parade and a christening of a friends deck. Yea i was the one that christened it, spilt my drink – Sunday drinks. Busy busy. I had a great weekend with family doing all those things but I couldn't help thinking "Shauna won't see this again, she won't know this happened." I had a great time but those thoughts kept sneaking in and tears were always right there lurking, ready to show themselves far too easily.
One thing that has come of this has been all our mutual friends reconnecting. One of which posted a pic of herself and Shauna, but in this pic Shauna was wearing a paperdoll on her heart. It took me a while to remember, but then I realised what the paperdoll was. It was me.
I was meant to travelling to Arizona on Sept 12th 2001 (Sept 11 in the USA). My bags were packed, my kids were at Mums and we got the phone call in the middle of the night to tell us all of the events of 9-11 were happening. Shauna rang me later on as well and we talked about how much I wanted to go to the USA, but how unstable the world was (and at that point we really didn't know what else would happen) and Shauna told me how afraid she was. For me, for her, and our families. "Don't come over, Nic, it's not worth it, stay home, hug your family close, keep tight with them, it's not worth it to come over, you can't leave them".
And I didn't.
Shauna made sure I was there in spirit though. She made a paperdoll and pinned it to her shirt so I was there too. Here is a pic. These are things that I had forgotten. I guess there is a little good to come of it all. Something else, too. it's made me really appreciate the friends I have. So many friends that I always know are there, but don't neccessarily see often. We might not see each other much, we might not chat often, but it's unconditional and it's times like this that they show up, and that is so freakin cool. I even had some flowers delivered on Saturday night – totally anonymous (who was the mystery flower person, I'd love to know! Thank you so much!) – they just turned up.
Anyway. Here's to good friends.
A layout to share – I'm writing down as much as I can of these things Abby says. She is so cute right now. She is attached to my hip, a real Mummy's girl, and I can't get enough of spending time with her.
Off to get the washing in – rain on the horizon again…
Laters
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